Travelling light means trusting God with the burdens you were never intended to bear. My largest burden is my discontentment and I am too self-centered.
I want to thanks my brother Andy for pointing out my flaws, that I realized that I am too self-centered. These had became a wall that I built in myself and make me couldn't trust and open-up, sometime even to God.
I care too much on how people think of me, how I feel, how to get what I want, all I think is about myself, only. I could barely care about others. Even sometime when I help people, I am not sincere enough, I still care on how others say about me. I care about my performances. Not with my pure heart. How selfish I can be.
As my brother Andy said, I was talking too much about 'ME', like it's always 'ME' that matter. This really sounds the alarm in my mind. I started to think and realize that is what I am doing, and it is not right. This not only kill my loves and cares toward others, but also hinder myself from God's helping hands. No wonder I feel so empty inside.
I really need to set down my luggage of discontent and self-centered and let God be God in my life. For the sake of people I love and people who love me. And for God sake. How can He use me when I am exhausted? How can i lift someone else's load if my arms are full with mine?
Thanks God letting me understand this before it's too late. As the bible says, “The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.” (Mark 12:29-31)
As a christian, what I should to is to love God and love others. No longer being discontent and self-centered. God help me to have more faith and know He is God.
P.S. There are certain weights in life you simply cannot carry. God is asking you to set them down and trust Him.
